Cupid stuck me with a SICKNESS.

I give up. Really, because what is the point in having hope when all signs point to NOTHING GOOD WILL COME. It's false hope. It's a lie. I have nothing to hold on for anymore, I was just too ignorant to realize it. Too busy HOPING. What is the point of hope really? When really, hope is what destroys us all. What I do believe, is proof, and facts. Thats a problem of mine. I take words and twist them, taking a rejection and forming it into FALSE hope. I'm too tall, too YOUNG, not pretty enough, not THIN enough, the list goes on. I can think of 100 different flaws in myself, and turn them into an excuse. THE THING IS, I shouldn't have to make excuses! Even when I'm in a situation full of them, I don't give up, I continue to work around the fact that I'm making excuses or the fact that I should have given up a long time ago. THOSE are the facts I need to take to heart. I'm sick of letting myself get this far, EVEN WHEN I know it all ends the same way. Always. So here I am, hands in the sky. I give up again, because if I just continued feeling the way I do now, I would just be a pathetic victim of false hope. Again.

Do you want love or do you want fame?

Being involved is overrated.
I dont think I've ever been this stressed out in my life. I dont ask for help because I can't rely on other people to get the job done, even though it might be a little easier on myself, In a way it just adds more stress because I have to worry about if the job is getting done. This is what I get for wanting to change the world.




The first step on the long stressful journey ahead of me.

On and on and on

people are changing

more often than seasons it seems

to remember when you used to know somebody

and with the blink of an eye you know nothing about them

it's not always by choice that you lose touch

everyone is so caught up living their own lives

the one short spand of time we each individually get

that keeping up with someone else's becomes more difficult as time progresses

If only the feeling was mutual,to be met half way rather to run the entire distance alone

but everyone only has one life and maybe half-way is too much to ask for

One of those nights

I feel alone in this little world tonight. Chick flicks I think are designed to make the single-population of the world depressed. I feel like I've been slam-dunked back into reality, with the realization that nothing and nobody lasts forever.

I'm begging you for mercy.

can't read my poker face.

played me like a game of cards.

oh well, I feel like I've grown a bit since the last time this has happened to me, but nonetheless, it still sucks. I've been single for a year. It's an either-or thing. It feels good but at the same time lonely in a sense? Mhmm. I feel more productive this way.
Well, I got my license.

Time for those adventures I promised.










Should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere?

We should be the change that we want to see.

I was looking for a song to sing
searching for a leader, but the leader was me.


If you're out there, sing along with me.
I'm dying to believe.
I'f you're out there, stand up and sing with me.







Today, John Legend changed my life.

Won't you come over love, so I can show you love.

Why do a majority of my friends live far distances from me?
Only a month until I get my license, then its going to be like a road trip every weekend.
Screw gas, thats what allowance is for!
I need to catch up with friends in person then rather on the internet as always:P
No one is down to drive any where ever, sooo I just gotta do everythin myselffffff


yargh.