All the places I can't reach

I find it amusing how you sometimes find yourself saying I want this, but then when you look back on times when you had something like it, you think twice. I think overall, I'm scared to be in a relationship again. I feel like I've wanted one for sometime now, but now looking at it from a different view, I'm extremely hesitant. I don't want to make more mistakes, nor do I want to settle for anything less than what I have my heart set on. I'm done seeking, finally. I'll wait until I am seeked.

Go to the ends of the earth for you

I put so much effort into something, and for what? For you to just walk out of my life? You're an amazing person with such a genuine soul, and for the past year or so you've made an incredible impact on my life. You're leaving soon, and I don't know what I'm gonna do with out you being a 45 minute drive away. No matter, because 8 hours is a drive I'm willing to make for you. It's been an odd roller coaster ride, but it's been one i'll never forget. You're one of the only people I can truly rely on no matter what the circumstances are. You've become a big part of my life, and even though I may not mean the same to you, this is all the impact you've made on me. Fingers are crossed, that everything will stay the same. At the same time, I have a feeling in my gut saying it won't. You're just, simply awsome. That's all I can say.

Only 7 days left, then begins the first step towards the next stage in my life. Im apprehensive, yet anxious. If only the real world was as easy as high school, but it is far from it. Im apprehensive because i've finally become used to the way things are, but anxious because i need a new environment. I need to meet new people, like if they haven't seen me in a while, they will take time out of their day to play catch up. Im moving on with high expectations but expecting the worst. I guess we will see what happens.